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09 March 2015 @ 11:32 pm
someday when you leave me I bet these memories follow you around  
Whoa this is definitely my record for time between posts. I've been doing a severe amount of Adult-ing lately I suppose, maybe that's why. I've felt really old and boring the last few months and I only just realised yesterday that LJ and fandoms help me feel..less like that I guess. So fuck it, I'm back.

I've been working so hard designing my own stuff and honestly it's been going so well, I've started a new business. But I hadn't noticed that running your own business consumes you and you become that asshole that only ever reads business stuff and that I don't have any outlet to just blah blah and waste time. And I think wasting time every now and again is good for the godamn soul right.

Plus I've not been writing at all and I really need that back in my life. But it's harder to be inspired if I'm only ever hanging out with my Adult self :)


God it actually feels so good to journal again - and writing something that noone from my RL will read. I've also been hanging out on Tumblr a little - that is such a good relief from Facebook.. Don't get me wrong, there's things I love about FBook, like my Grandparents are on there and I can show them pictures of my life and my kid and stuff but holyyyyy shiiiiit some people need to STOP like stop. How do people not see that what they post says so much about them.. like my brother in law just did an update about how he was liking How To Get Away With Murder except he couldn't keep watching it because there was 'so much gay stuff'. Jesus Chriiiist... like I like the guy and wouldn't even know he was such an ignoramous if Fbook didn't exist for him to say dumb ass shit like that on. It's like some of my FB friends don't realise they don't HAVE to post their thoughts. They can just have those thoughts and tell noone. Like people used to in the olden days.

ps I have noone to tell that I met this guy who's a famous actor where I'm from - not anywhere else lol - and though he was married and I am too we had a massive connection and stayed up all night at an impromptu party talking shit on a balcony and nothing happened because we're both not cheaters but it was basically one of the coolest nights I've ever had. We were going through our iTunes calling each other out on the shittest songs that came up on shuffle and we laughed a lot and he was beautiful and we drank too much and then the sun came up and we said we both really liked each other and then went to our own rooms. So weird but cool. This was weeks ago and I won't see  him again but he did follow me on Instagram. But that's it. SEE - I AM ADULTING SO HARD.

Anyway .. ahh. I missed you LJ xx
 
 
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There's no anecdote for ironykudosirony on March 9th, 2015 06:16 pm (UTC)
I am jealous of your hot actor talkathon and I don't even know who it is.

Being an adult is hard. Basically the bills part. Ugh. Also, not getting to say what you really want to say for fear of getting fired.

People share way too much on facebook. I just share cat pictures.
Scarlettgolden_scarlett on March 12th, 2015 03:35 am (UTC)
YES - I think just sharing cat pictures is THE most rational use of social media. I know waaaay too much about waaay too many people I know now :(

And bills and not getting fired are way too hard. When kids complain about school and their lives I'm like.. wait for bills. Just wait. (But I don't say that out loud coz they'd never get it which is fair)

Oh god I'm jealous of the talkathon too - It was actually like a scene from a movie. It's kinda sad to think it goes no further but in the same way maybe it's kinda perfect *because* it doesn't?

Hey and thanks for commenting. Especially since I just basically rose from the dead on here.. I appreciate it :) x
Joannajoanna_484 on March 11th, 2015 01:03 am (UTC)
Hello! Good to see that you're taking some time away from adulting and connecting with celebs to dust off the old LJ ;)

Yup, social media in general definitely makes it easier for some to show too much of their true selves. I have a few times read a tweet from someone and thought, "Ugh. I wish you hadn't posted that, because now I can't think of you as I used to." Why do people have to over-share and shatter our illusions? I'd much rather not know everything about everyone, haha!

Scarlettgolden_scarlett on March 12th, 2015 03:38 am (UTC)
*blows dust* Hello! Yes I feel actually great for it - remembering this outlet from Adulting has been like opening a valve - seriously. So thanks for commenting even tho I've been AWOL for so long xx

I definitely prefer not knowing everything about everyone, prefer the mystery! And absolutely one tweet can mess up my opinion of them - like from years ago - I still remember lol. I'm like.. oh he seems nice now but still... that one political rant from 2010.... haha :)
newynnewyn on March 12th, 2015 01:39 pm (UTC)
In my phone there's just so many lines shown in the feed filter and you have to click on someone's post if you want to read more of it. So here I am reading the feed of your post and it cuts off right where you say you are busy designing....

...what? new cliffhangers was my guess! LOL! It would be so like you.

Welcome back!
Scarlett: sixteen candlesgolden_scarlett on March 13th, 2015 10:25 am (UTC)
haha oh I wish - haven't written for a while so no cliff hangers over here! Gotta get back on to that...!

Thanks for the welcome back :) so nice to get some comments after all this time, I really appreciate it x hope things are good with you!
marenkpmarenkp on March 18th, 2015 09:40 pm (UTC)
How nice to see you on LJ again! I was just re-reading Come Undone and Between the Shadow and the Soul and was wondering about you. Sounds like life is going well. If you're feeling old and boring, there's nothing like a little LJ and fandom to take the edge off. :)

Glad to see you back.
Scarlett: hbp huggolden_scarlett on March 20th, 2015 10:58 am (UTC)
Aw that's so lovely - thank you!

Yes LJ and fandom definitely good for that edge :)

Good to BE back! x
Scarlettgolden_scarlett on March 23rd, 2015 09:53 am (UTC)
I just remembered I was going to send you a fix of mine to look at - and I looked back and found your email.. just sent it now! I said on the email - have a read only if you have time! No pressure and no rush :)

Thanks x
marenkpmarenkp on March 24th, 2015 11:20 pm (UTC)
Read it. Loved it. Would love to read more!

I sent you a more complete e-mail too. Thanks for sharing it with me. I do so love me some H/Hr!
Scarlett: hhr jkr on smackgolden_scarlett on June 3rd, 2015 09:29 pm (UTC)
OH! I haven't seen an email - I'll go and check tonight! Thank you so much, thanks for reading it! My hotmail is so chock full of junk emails I forget to look at it - I must've missed your reply! Yay x
(Anonymous) on July 13th, 2015 06:48 am (UTC)
So, this is just a random stalker-type, but I just read Between the Shadow and the Soul on portkey, commented, and wandered around the internets until I found you here. All really just to say how much I loved that. Because I really, really did.
I'll probably post it on my keep-track-of-stories-I-like-tumblr [crystalicitylikesfics] (honestly, the only reason I didn't already is because I like to tag the authors if they have a tumblr. Well. And the fact that I'm lazy when coming up with tags.) But anyway. I'm rambling for no reason.
I'm one of the trolls that read a million fics and rarely comment, so I guess I just wanted to emphasize how much I liked that fic, I guess? Wow. Super rambles.
but anyway.
(I should probably also be almost polite and comment on your actual post as well... Adulting SUCKS. For real. I'm currently failing horribly. Hence the unceasing fanfic consumption. So I can pretend adulting doesn't exist.)
Scarlett: hbp huggolden_scarlett on July 30th, 2015 10:26 am (UTC)
Hahah - I am so down for pretending adulting doesn't exist .. in like a 'lalalalahh can't hear you' kind of way :)

Hey thanks so much for the feedback on Between the Shadow and the Soul - I totally love that you don't comment often but you made the effort to find me to say that - truly does make my day. I don't spend enough time on LJ now (too much stupid adulting) but coming back to this makes me want to remember to come back more :) I don't have a tumblr really (I lurk sorta) but would be more than happy for you to post it -and will come check out your recs too :)

Thanks xox